Done with Year 1, now for the holidays!

So my exams finally ended yesterday and I can finally say goodbye to year 1. After the exams, me and the girls (Chelsi, Annisaa, Saf, Melissa, Xiao Yun, Hui Ling) headed to Arab street for lunch at Fika, a Swedish cafe. The food was alright, not really fantastic to me. After that we headed back to Bugis Street for some shopping. The weather was ridiculously hot yesterday, at least for me, and I'm wearing my checkered top!

Finally took a from-where-I-stand shot after ages!

 OOTD:

Top: Mango

Jeans: Bershka

Flats: Rubi/ Cotton On

Tote Bag: Bershka

 After that I met up with Shu Xuan, Camille and Jasmine Chong for our Nando's dinner. What better way to celebrate the end of year one and exams than having peri-peri chicken at Nando's? x

Short Update

So, I've one more paper left for my exams/ finals and then I'm done with Year 1 of Polytechnic! Time has flown by and I can't wait to have my semester break! So for a short update from Valentine's day (or maybe even before valentines day) 'til now, I've watched a soccer match between SP-iains and ITE, which was surprisingly entertaining, mainly because I was supporting a team. Ever since that day, it's pretty much just studying and studying and studying for my exams.  Hopefully I'll get selected for the volunteering experience for the J Spring Fashion Show on Gardens by the Bay's. Fingers crossed!

Friendship like these, I'll never stop trying.

Happy Valentine's Day everybody. So, Valentine's Day is a day where people show their appreciation for people they love and adore. Hence, here I am blogging on a Valentine's Day to show my appreciation for my beloved friends. xx

These six girls are more or less what I go school for. Polytechnic is different, very different, and sometimes I just dread to go school so much that 80% of the time I just wanna stay home and escape from everything because I've never had these much workload etc, but having them + hanging with them and such just makes me so much happier. They've changed my views about stuff and are probably one of those I can be more or less myself with. Well, it's not always rainbows and butterflies and there'e definitely times where the negative thoughts kicks in but yea, they're pretty much my happy pills and I'm so so so thankful for them. 

After knowing them so much more these few weeks/ maybe even months, I realised how similar yet different we are lol. Let's not forget that they're pretty much the people I can play Bridge with, fangirl-ed and insult some artists that aren't my type with, talking about random stuff and gossip with and etc. Another group of peeps whom I can be more of myself with which is really cool. They're also the ones, especially shu xuan, the shortest one, I can just talk to them and stuff without feeling awkward. 

My best friend. The best-est of the many friends. The Bimbo. The Idiot. I don't think I've anything to say about her but, sigh, what would I do without you? She's that bitch that keeps making me regret not going to Temasek Polytechnic every single time. “It’s exciting when you find parts of yourself in someone else.”  Annaka Silvia once or twice or god knows how many times said. That's her. She's one of those I can find part of myself in. We're actually quite different yet quite similar at the same time and I can't have a better best friend.

The Rules of Social Anxiety

1. Walk with eyes fixed on the ground 

They are watching, laughing, judging

Walk normal

Don’t focus on it too much or you will stumble and be made a fool

2. Look like you are writing and busy in class

avoid being called on

you know the answer but what if you stutter or mumble

What if they tell you “speak up I can’t hear you”

3. Don’t make a noise

hold in that cough that sneeze that breathe

people will hear you 

do not draw attention to yourself like that

4. Spend time every night before you go to bed to think

Think about all the embarrassing things you have ever done

Everyone remembers, that’s all they remember

5. Never enter a room full of people

They all look

Why are you here?

Why are you alive?

6. Your friends all secretly hate you

you know why they didn’t reply to your text

you know how they all dread seeing you

you are only put up with because of pity

7. Always be scared

Scared to sit next to a stranger

Scared to see someone you know

Scared eat in front of people

Scared to talk on the phone

Scared to go to social events

Scared order at a restaurant

Scared to talk

Scared to have a panic attack

Scared to be noticed

Always scared

but don’t worry,

you don’t like people anyway,

at least that’s what you say,

you’re “antisocial”

You don’t even care what they think, people are annoying,

that’s what you tell them.

You play it off as a joke

but really you’re always scared.

—  Anonymous  (via dharmabloom)

I wonder...

I wonder how does stepping out of the house feeling confident feels. Whether it's going to school, hanging out with people, etc. I wonder how does looking in the mirror and being happy with how I look feels. I wonder how does not giving a fuck about everything feels. I wonder how it's like feeling free and happy. I wonder how does falling in love with someone who loves you just as much feels. I wonder how it's like having the same friend with you for more than 10 years feels. I wonder how it'll be like feeling like I'm the happiest girl in the entire world. I wonder how it's like feeling like I'm good in certain area, like I'm actually good at something. I wonder.

She Looks So Perfect - 5 Seconds of Summer

She Looks So Perfect is just perfect, well for me at least. Totally not what I was expecting but I was not disappointed at all. It was only out yesterday and I've already watched/ listened to it god knows how many times so go check it out! So proud of the boys, first singleee. Is it hi or hey? Apparently it's hey. x

hey hey, hey hey

hey hey, hey hey

hey hey, hey hey

hey hey, hey hey

Simmer down, simmer down

they say were too young now to amount to anything else

but look around we work too damn hard for this

just to give it up now

if you don't swim you'll drown

but don't move honey

she looks so perfect just standing there

in my american apparel underwear

and i know now that I'm so down

your lipstick stain is a work of art

i got your name tattooed in an arrow heart

and i know now that I'm so down

hey hey, hey hey

hey hey. hey hey

hey hey

lets get out lets get out cause this deadbeats town's

only here just to keep us down

while i was out I've found myself alone

just thinking if i showed up with a plane ticket

and a shiny diamond ring with your name on it

would you wanna run away too?

cause all i really want is you

she looks so perfect standing there

in my american apparel underwear

and i know now that I'm so down

i made a mix tape straight out of 94

I've got your ripped skinny jeans lying on the floor

and i know now that I'm so down

hey hey, hey hey

hey hey, hey hey

hey hey

looks so perfect standing there

in my american apparel underwear

and i know now that I'm so down

your lipstick stain is a work of art

I've got your name tattooed in an arrow heart

and i know now that I'm so down

hey hey, hey hey

hey hey, hey hey

hey hey

she looks so perfect standing there

in my american apparel underwear

and i know now that I'm so down

your lipstick stain is a work of art

I've got your name tattooed in an arrow heart

and i know now that I'm so down

Short weekly update

This week has been pretty tiring, hectic and horrible. Many assignments to be done, stressing out for end semester test, last minute troubles and I've just been really really tired. Exam's in 2 weeks and I've yet started on anything and I still have  so much assignments due next week. I'm so so sick of school. My brain is also barely working today, hence me embarrassing myself because I have no idea what I thought my friend was saying when he asked if I would like to meet up to study. Also, have been having super weird dreams or just couldn't sleep lately and my dark circles are getting bad to worst. Help. Can't wait to semester 2 to end!!

The Fault in Our Stars.

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year guys, hope you guys have an amazing time! New years eve reunion dinner was amazing, had all my favourite food for steamboat. Chinese New Year was great this year too, mahjong, food and such! Didn't take any outfit shots or any photos to be exact as I didn't look good lol, as usual! x